I get to see my baby in two days while I have a trial period as a nanny in a new home…

If I secure this position, I’ll be living fifteen minutes from my baby and I’ll bring a close to the distance.

Cross your fingers, everyone!

You should all be jealous that you can’t have my girlfriend.

She’s rather perfect.

Sucks to suck, bro.

Your fingertips dance across my clammy skin as you assure me with only a few brief words and a kiss upon my forehead, the most delicate feeling I’ve ever yearned for.

The subtle sorrow in your eyes does not cause me to part.

Instead, I inch closer your staggered breaths impatient and telling.

My damp eyes fall closed as I playfully brush your nose against my own.

I bury my head into your chest, practically ripped wide open for the world to see, brought upon by the emotional state of simply being worn.

I inhale your familiar scent, breathing you into the deepest depths of my lungs as my body lies intertwined with yours.

Your heart beats in a steady rhythm as you begin to tell me about your day.

And piece by piece, I begin to demolish the wall that you knew so well.

Between the momentary sporadic pauses and tranquil silences that we share, you begin to express words of pain, fear, happiness, and love.

I record each sound, each word, into my mind so that I may play back the melodic sounds of your voice, suddenly sharing with me the dark things that consume you.

Your velvet brown eyes turn to a desolate shade of gray as you revisit the ghosts of your past.

You turn to me with quivering lips as you press them to mine absentmindedly.

Raw passion is truly alive when you feel the most vulnerable.

As you peel away from my face slowly, we exchange knowing glances before resting our heads and drifting into the cold, unsettling night.

A troubled heart is unresting; A troubled mind longs for the solitary moment of stillness.

There is no better feeling than waking up to the girl that you love more than words could begin to describe. Each and every time I wake up to that beautiful face, I fall in love all over again. It’s the way that her curls fall upon her bare shoulders. Or that sleepy smile that curls upon her lips when she is halfway to dreamland. It’s the feeling of my fingertips tracing against her milky skin, dancing playfully as she rests her head next to my own. And it’s in this moment that I realize, I feel whole.I feel complete. 

I’ll be leaving her arms tomorrow for the very first time and I know that it will rip my heart into a million pieces, because I leave not knowing when I’ll see that face again. I leave only to return to the phone calls and the text messages. I leave to my own bed. I leave to the silence. I leave to the chills left upon my skin where her body used to brush against my own. 

But, I leave knowing that I’m completely in love with everything she is and everything she ever will be. I leave knowing that I will see her again, as soon as humanly possible. I leave knowing that this girl has opened my eyes to love once more. 

I’m scared. But, she’s worth it. She’s worth everything.

When you read this, baby, rest peacefully. I’ll miss you. I love you. And each mile apart could only make me love you more and appreciate the next time I’ll hold you in my arms again. You’re the Mario to my Princess Peach. I won’t say goodbye.

I’ll be seeing you, Regina Lynn.

Due to a series of very unfortunate events, I have been a bit absent since Monday.

BUTTTTTTTTTTTT

I have been at my girlfriend’s house since then. 

So, to all my lovely followers (despite the fact that it was completely spontaneous and under rather odd circumstances), I have finally met face to face with the girl of my dreams. I’ll fill you all in a little later. c:

ALSOOOOOOO I got a job working as a live in nanny, which I will begin when I leave her house this coming Monday.

When I have my own place, I’m totally investing in a stripper pole.

I just want to be a part of your life.

I want your parents to adore me. I want your friends to ask about me. I want to be a part of everything.

I want to hold you. I want to kiss you. I want to look you in the eyes and tell you that I love you.

This distance might be the death of me. But, you’re damn sure worth fighting for. What we have is unlike anything I’ve ever had. And I’m not ever letting this go.

going to meet the family i’m gonna be a nanny for today. c:

buy vibrators together.